think back to summer.
I once thought that that summer was absolutely amazing. when really, it changed me forever. it changed my perspective and who I am, my morals. you taught me what it’s like to be so hurt and feel so betrayed that my heart broke over and over for the next few months. I don’t remember ever truly having my heart broken, I was always the one to dump guys (for their own protection from myself). but that.. that was an eyeopener for me. I then knew just what I had done to past boyfriends. I couldn’t believe that I had put them through as much hurt as I was feeling. how could anyone do something so horrible? so, for me… feeling my heart break the second I found out, I couldn’t bear it. I went outside and I cried and I cried and cried. I cried every night for months. I hated everyone and everything. I hated myself, even, for thinking you were different and for having done it in the past. how could I do that? how could YOU do that? I’ve forgiven both myself and you for what we’ve done.. but I still cringe to this day, remembering. sometimes I even cry. it wasn’t that long ago, but I don’t think that I’ll ever forget what you did to me.
Because I can’t stand the thought of being without you. Because I don’t want to throw away all that we’ve been through so far. Because you mean everything to me..
So there is this boy that I'm sort of dating, and I feel like I'm not a high priority for him and it makes me sad, because I like him so much. And I don't even need him as my 'boyfriend' or whatever we are, but I need his friendship. I don't know why I'm telling you this because I don't know you. But for some reason I just felt like I could write to you and you would understand and sympathize. That's all, I guess.
Let me start out by saying that you can come and talk to me any time.<3
And I know how that feels; you’re sitting there, liking him So much.. but it just seems like you’re not worth his time… right?
Maybe there’s something huge going on in his life that you don’t know about? Maybe it’s really distracting for him? Why don’t you try talking to him and see why he doesn’t seem to care all that much?
Listen here babe, we are NOT falling apart, okay? Don't tell yourself that. 7 months strong. <3
Maybe we’re falling apart..